When you want to the least, is when you need to the most

I'll save you all the drivel and excuses of the last 6 months. It's an ugly story and since I can't go back I need to just move forward. Even my horoscope this morning started with, "there's no better time to recommit yourself ..."

So here I go.

Besides, the sun is shining. Spring is here. The temperature will reach the double digits today and by week's end we'll top 20 degrees Celsius.

And it's a short work week :)

A perfect day to smile. A perfect day to feel good. A perfect day for a 're commitment.' A perfect way to start a Monday, if you ask me.

I'm in the process of designing my business cards. I've delved into my beading and have much to do making jewellery and bookmarks. Feedback from everyone has been positive, so if I can make a few bucks doing something I love ... why not?

My other big announcement is I've started training as a palliative care caregiver. A ten week course offered by the Hospice Association of Ontario. Afterwards, I'll be able to provide hospice palliative care as a volunteer. A first step to what I hope becomes a career move into palliative care. If I had both the money and time, I would go back to school and do nursing.

But this is a start.

I love what I'm learning and hope to be able to make a difference to a family and their loved one as they make their final journey home.

Rethinking Needed.

I think I need to take a look at my reasons for wanting to do this.

I've really been cheating on these blogs lately ... posting just for the sake of posting without any real thought or commitment offered. That's not where I wanted to be, and certainly not what I wanted to do. I find I'm not sitting down to do it until after 11 at night, and hurried to try and just "get something in" before midnight.

Kind of like what I'm doing now.

My plan all along for today was to mark a tragic 13th anniversary ... but again, I haven't left myself enough time to give it the attention it deserves.

I think I need to take some time to rethink my thoughts. I may or may not have a post tomorrow. I've made a promise to myself that unless I have something worthwhile to contribute, I'm not going to post.

We'll see what tomorrow brings.

My Mother Always Told Me ....

If you can't say something nice -

And that's the kind of day I've had. I'm tired; I'm cranky.

I'd say nothing at all if it wasn't for NaBloPoMo, so instead I'll keep it short. I'm stressed over George. I have a toothache. My feet are so swollen today I could barely fit them in my shoes. It may be from my blood pressure, but I'm choosing to tell myself it's from the heat and humidity. I was home from work today and didn't accomplish much around the house which is all the more depressing.

Oh well. Looking forward to a good night sleep and a better tomorrow.

Thanks for listening.