Thursday, April 10, 2008

Thanks for the push, Donna!

It's a new beginning.

Again. And a new beginning deserves a new name.

It has been a long time since my last entry. I wouldn't be able to count the number of times I told myself to make the time to just do it. Tonight, while planning it in my head for the umpteenth time, a little voice whispered "a dog's breakfast" in my ear and it had to be!

As you get to know me, you'll learn that I am one who believes in signs. As I approach the second anniversary of the death of my best friend this Sunday, I know she's around me. 'A dog's breakfast' is a phrase she used quite often; and she always rode my ass for putting things off.

I'm not much of a writer. You won't find fancy here! Nor witty; clever. Hell, you probably won't even get proper grammatical English. What you will get is honesty, sincerity ... and what's in my heart! I call myself a passionate person, because everything I have goes into everything I do. I don't do things half way, and I don't feel things half way! With a husband, 5 kids, a full time job and numerous family commitments ... to describe my life as a roller coaster ride would be an understatement! I struggle far more often than I would like to .... with my marriage, my kids, my weight, my self esteem, my motivation -- my everything.

My hope through blogging is to vent; to talk myself through things. To resolve feelings and issues. To maintain, or should I say find some sanity. Primarily for me; indirectly and most importantly for my family.

What progress, you ask, have I made? I have begun to be a friend to myself. (Hecato, Greek philosopher)

Love and hugs to all,
Me.